Well, 2 weeks at my grandma’s house went by faster than I could remember how it started. This winter break was dominated by DRAMAtical murder as it was my first time playing it and holy shit nothing could have prepared me for the grip it has on me , i mean besides Aoba’s life-altering twink pose (“blue guy with headphones on bed” as previously referred to by me…) I went into this game completely blind! Entranced by the extremely 2012 yaoi realness of it, it took me back to a beautiful time of growing up with unrestricted internet access. Not only that but it was just truly. Good. An enjoyable ass game. Sci-fi, mind control, an evil organization promising utopia, a funky world with both old fashioned gangs and yakuza, and the emergence of an extremely advanced cyber game that happens in this virtual inter-psyche world…all in this same universe. I mean I could go on forever so this should be a separate post but whats fresh off my brain right now, after completing all the endings is definitely the seamless incorporation of what i decided to call selfcest with a twist??? Sure, its a form of self acceptance for Aoba but yeah why not fuck your dog robot that carries a part of your own self THAT originated from some genetic modification you had as a tube baby..originally serving to protect you from the THIRD part of yourself that is more or less out of control OKAY YEAH needs its own post. It’s good. And fun. Virus and Trip should have kissed. Anyway! My cousin made some great pancakes and I can still taste them in my mouth although she’s, as of now, gatekeeping the recipe. Will update soon.

This weather, definitely not as cold as it should be…Not enough gloomy skies and dreamy rains but it still inspires listening to 13 minute wonderfully mind-numbing doom metal songs, Windhand being my favorite example in mind.
Windhand - Grey Garden
Note: I started writing this a while ago before boarding the plane to
get back home, I'm finally getting to finishing this a few days later
^__^ and yes i gave Tommy february6's album "Tommy Airline" a first listen back then and enjoyed it, I had heard her music before since I watched Paradise Kiss so I knew what to expect but I specially enjoyed how it felt like a fashion show in Nimbasa City from Pokemon black/white version. It packs a specific charm, it's upbeat, it's sweet and melancholic but fun like it could change your world in a dressing room but it could also hold your hand falling from a ferris wheel (permitting myself another Nimbasa City reference..and speaking of ferris wheels tommy's music also feels like that part of Sputnik Sweetheart by Murakami where Sumire's stuck in the gondola of one but instead of watching her apartment window in dread, she's watching a lively heartwarming house party and yearning to be there.) Another atmosphere that comes to mind is like heisei era realness if Tarozan's concept music has taught me anything.
Tommy february6 - Tommy Airline [dl]
Disappear - Tarozan
Not Like Them - Tarozan
Nimbasa City
Sputnik Sweetheart epub
I've actually been leaning towards those kinds of sounds this week, that paint a flashy, colorful image with this tightly rolled core of overcoming the superficial by invoking the superficial and pushing it down to a new level then just enjoying things as they are...I'm definitely shining a light on Tarozan's projects; they bring this fresh liveliness to the genre, he's creating this new solid persona revolving around an atmosphere and every little bit he adds to his music/image serves to pull me further into that fun feel-good world. It also feels to me like a reminder to stay authentic in terms of self expression. He also does some sick mixes under kiraTV!
KiraTV mix
(leaving the Love Exposure talk for another time but #tarozan_energy)
I've been mostly trying to compensate for the terrible sleep I had back at my grandma's house this week!! I'd say I succeeded at about 70%. On another note, my bursts of background wandering thoughts have come back and my latest topic was how words are only the meaning we intend for them to have, the meaning we imbue in them, how a conversation only forms through the guiding of our own beliefs into a string of nothing, now something. The same could be said about everything we touch I suppose. This is getting a bit longer than I intended so I'll cut it here !! I'm probably gonna use this blog as an outlet of all forms honestly and post more about music and media in general and speak on whatever inspiration i get from them <3